Sunday, December 7, 2014

August 18, 2014 (Week 105)

August 18, 2014

And because death comes upon all men, to fulfill the merciful designs of the grand creator, its is also necessary that there needs be a power of ressureccion. 
Wherefore, its precise that there is an infinite atonement, unless there was an infinite atonement, this corruption never could be relived in incorruption. - 2 nefi 9.6-7
(translations are not exact)

All I can think about in this moment are scriptures about the resurección jajaja. I'll never die! Only, I'll be revived unto a greater life. The only thing I really think about is just how I've learned a whole lot out here in 2 years, and how I keep learning, but its kind of planed out, and God gave the commandment for 2 years because he knew that we could learn what we needed to in that time. But, to keep on progressing, we need other assignments and callings. that's the only way to keep learning...

I'm happy about my time, I've made mistakes, I haven't been perfect, but I've learned so much. I'm so glad they gave me that talk to talk about. It fits just about right. Inspiracion! haha. But yeah... I have no clue how to put 2 years of spiritual and incredible and life changing experiments in words. You just can't. It's impossible. The things I've learned have been incredible. I wouldn't give these 2 years up for anything. There is nothing that would make me give up this time. I'm so grateful for your support in everything. It was always nice to know that I'd have a few emails every Monday. I couldn't have done this without you.

Really, these are just words. The feelings I have right now I have no idea how to convey. Not a single clue. If anyone has ever been changed by their mission it's been me. Now I guess I just gotta live up to my words. I told everyone Sunday that we are missionaries for life. And I now have to fulfill. I can't stop, I just can't stop... I don't know how anyone could teach this gospel for so much time and NOT be converted unto the Lord... There are still people out there waiting. That much the Lord has made known to me.
One thing, I want to apologize to those of my immediate family. It's always been in my nature to be out doing something always, and that's a big reason why I wasn't always home with you all... but I hope that's all gonna change now. I hope to be a bigger part of the family now.
I know I've said a lot of things... I'm kind of lost for words right now... I hope everything comes out better on Wednesday, but I highly doubt that, jaja. I love you all...
I hope this somewhat made sense. I'm really kind of numb to everything right now. I'm sure I'll wake up when I'm in the airport though... That should help me realize things a little clearer. I'm sure a Mountain Dew will help :)

Quick story, so I was pretty disappointed that I wasn't going to have a baptism my last week, just like I'd given the last baptism to all my companions that were moving on, and I was sad that I wasn't going to. Sunday night at 9:30, other elders were gonna baptize before the the changes happened, and they say, they have 2 people. Cardenas, who is going home as well said one for me and one for Mortensen! Nah just kidding, and I say "well to be honest I always wanted to baptize my last Sunday..." "Well what are you waiting for? Go get your white pants and tie!!! Run!" "Alright!!!" I ran to the house, changed and threw on my white tie, and ran back to the church to the confused look of the people outside haha. asi que, Elder Mortensen was able to baptize and get that nametag wet one more time before he left :) And how good it felt to say "Having been commissioned by Jesus Christ..." one last time.
I hope you are ready mom. :)
Love you all, I'm so grateful for everything. I'll see you soon.
For the last time, (at least at this point in time, I hope for another chance later on!)